I prayed distinctly for wisdom. I wanted God to show me some
reasons why the men in my life have hurt me as they have. Now no one is
perfect, and I have made many mistakes, and contribute to the relations to
guide them and nurture them. Perhaps
those men are hurting as much if not MORE than me.
This story is about how I received the wisdom. It is Sunday
and I have just restarted attending a church I attended years ago! I walk to
church and it is cold and snowy out, but the sun is shining. The walk is
approximately a half hour one way, and I enjoy that time to engage in prayer
and meditation. I was tired this morning and as I attend alone, motivation was
to stay cuddled in my warm bed. BUT I got up and went.
The wisdom was delivered to me. In looking at the bible and
the influence of the men of history can show you the attitudes we posses that
lead us to make mistakes. Our attitudes drive us and we are driven by fear,
anger, frustration, materialism, and selfishness. Even deeper the message I
received was so much more than this, Attitudes that specifically drive us to
make some fatal errors are
Lust
Sense of Entitlement
Insensitivity
Evil
Cunning
Saving Face over Maintaining
Integrity of your Authentic Self
All of these traits I have seen VIVIDLY in the last two
years, they were probably there in these men prior to, however they surfaced
when I wanted resolve and reconciliation and planning how that can happen.
These things may not have a match.
We can try and help those that need to see more clearly and
change their attitude, but we cannot change them. We can enlighten them, guide
them, in the end it is up to them to change, some do not want to, and that is a
shame. Ironic these people feel shame and then continue to perpetuate it not
even knowing what a shame it is.
My wish would be we all recognise we are good people, we
make mistakes and we make poor decisions.
It is time to make the choice to be the authentic you, that
glowing warm person deep in your heart. When you are it feels fabulous, and I
can only pray and meditate that it brings people of the same authenticity to
me.
Love one another, and pray for warmth in your enemies heart.
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