Over the Easter weekend I challenged myself very last minute
to begin the first steps in overcoming a fear of mine that has been with me for
25 years. I just did the math and I feel ashamed that I have allowed fear to
rob me of independence for 25 years.
I am also ashamed to now see the people I
encountered along the way did not open to kindness to support and cheer me on
to conquer my fear. In fact they enabled the fear to continue. Now that is
another story and detailed more in my book that I am currently writing.
So there I am last minute heading off for a weekend of
challenge and facing a 25 year old fear head on. To accomplish the end result
and meet the final challenge will take some time and I am documenting it. I
hope it will inspire others to look inside themselves and avoid allowing
enablers and fear to stop you.
You know why I am facing this now, all the enablers are
gone. With the enablers gone I was able to be my own cheerleader and support. I
AM all I need. If I was always alone I know this fear never would have existed
in me. Interesting how that works, and how I see that so clearly now.
Over the course of the weekend many angel alerts came to me.
An angel alert is a sign, something so prominent,
something that cannot be pinned on coincidence, something that is not luck. An
angel alert is the universes divine energy announcement.
A beacon to direct your path. Visions of
desires in my heart were overflowing. The energy was magnificent.
Not only was my weekend fear facing challenge pushing me
through my fear, it was enlightening me on my journey. This fear was a huge
block in my journey. I now believe it is one of the most significant detours in
my life and has affected every area of my life, and I ignored it for too long.
This energy overload pushed me to write about this fear, and
so birthed a new book. Writers block had been troubling me for months. The time
was now for the birth of my story, volume by volume. I was empowered and fuelled
writing until my keyboard broke.
Devil’s intervention. A broken keyboard on a laptop! What? I couldn’t
even log on to my computer. Not to worry, I will plug in my keyboard and away I
go. That worked until now when I opened up my laptop again only for this plug
in not to work. Well I got it working.
Someone really does not want me typing, and go figure my only writing
utensils are pencils and sharpies.
The reasons I share this are many;
1.
Do not let fear paralyze you.
2.
Do not let others enable your paralysis.
Surround yourself with people that will indeed lift you higher.
3.
Be alone, you can do it all on your own.
4.
Know you will have obstacles placed in your way.
5.
Know the obstacles are temporary.
6.
Do not let anyone tell you your desires, dreams,
or wishes cannot come true.
Now go look in the mirror and face your fear head on.
